Leisure Cruise - The Getaway [Official Video]

Al Fresco

Al Fresco in the Fall

We wandered through the streets of the west Village after moving drums and hardware out of a dingy club basement on Sunday.Funny to see our haunts in the daylight!

 I always pay so much attention to every detail and I want to save and taste every eye line, smell, sound and feeling for another day!

We wandered around stopping at an obviously french inspired CAFE where we sat and enjoyed the sunshine, piping hot afternoon cappuccino and a rich looking latte.

We sat on the bench watching the older locals gather and talk about the latest neighborhood gossip while also drinking gorgeous aromatic coffees. No of us were in a hurry or bustling through our days.

This was a post sitting in my drafts... this was pre hurricane Sandy!

Write about that bitch another day!

Marriage

Marriage            

  A union and merging of two hearts, bodies and souls, I believe and I am fiercely independent!!!

          I feel like I must continue as an individual down my own path and so must he!! Sharing the joys and sorrows along the way!

 Marriage is like opening the bird cage if it is based on real love and friendship.

 Now watch me fly.

Craving...

Musky, untamed intimacy... and adventures on the water!!!

that was written 10/14/12

It is now 3/17/23

and we live on the water having untamed and intimate adventures!!! Manifest your damn life !

40 FORTY 4 Decades

 I have surprised myself!!! I have almost forgotten myself! Something shifted in me and I stopped being driven to create everyday and sometimes I feel as if I wait to finish dreams and I have no idea why! I used to spend countless hours painting ,reading,taking photos,writing, day dreaming and working now I work but maybe not hard enough! I'm really hungry!!! I guess it's now or never time, shit or get off the pot time... I have allot to be grateful for and I need to start showing it! It's use it or loose it time!

Angels and Demons

We all have wings...we just need to remember how to fly!!!

Light and Dark

who knows

The best things are surprises and expected shocks...c'mon tell me you never knew it was coming...REALLY a little??? Sorta unless you just won the lotto!?

Damn the ELLIPSIS and the way anyone ever chews a bone!!! We all do it, have done it, we all have dreams and are vulnerable.

We all cast spells and wish. Do you do? IT THE THING(s) or just whine, wine and worry?

I do all the above I am satisfied, striving and concious!!!

2012 Bring it on baby

2012 is the year of DREAMS realized
FLOWERS painting WEDDINGS business FAMILY
travel CELEBRATIONS friends FASHION food
DISCOVERY & OPPORTUNITY

Because...

The breath of our love...

Smells like vanilla and tobacco

Our love is warm safe and moist like humid summer days.

Its pure clean and dirty the way it should be.

Its real...

Sensual and very beautiful!

It arrives and never departs the destination is for forever

I wish I lay naked and vulnerable in your arms this very moment.

Tasting you, feeling you deep inside me...caressing my womb.

You make me sway and shake and dream.

Genuine...

free from pretense, affectation, or hypocrisy; sincere: a genuine person.


Ha, where have all the good guys gone?

I think that money, success, and social power leave very few people un phased and scarred...
( sad + true)... Even those in their wake end up scarred and jaded.



I am loyal and caring I give to much & wish I didn't give a shit... but I do!!!
turning the other cheek!

Day Two...

Day two has come and is going...

I am reflective, satisfied, convinced & hopelessly consumed.

I will never be an afterthought again.

Day One

The day has arrived ...
I am officially on a six week run of sobriety and retraining my body and mind to crave only what it needs.

MEDITATION restoration Cultivation

Deconstruction + Reconstruction = ME :)

I think my style is that I don't have a specific style...??? Don't know really!

I have been wanting to make and recreate clothes into one of a kind items for forever !!!
There is something really satisfying about destroying and rebuilding things!!!!
I started today...spurred on by wordrobe bordom and the need to be creative.

my old life sounded like this!!! SO sad...

Mad World
I just heard this song and I love it but damn did i feel this way for that long?




Gary Jules (cover of Tears for Fears)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsty.com/lyrics/g/gary_jules/#share

Jewelled...

cerebral mortar and pestle grinding.....

earthy desire......intoxicating .

Sweetness of breath

bodies jewelled with sweat.

Lip gloss stains ........ kissing salty glowing skin

hand fulls of deep warm sublimeness

searing ripe flesh.......

Insomnia...Mania...

My Insomnia has been driving me crazy not sleeping more than a couple hours in every 24 hour period for over a month reached a fever pitch a week ago Thursday...In a cab with one of my dearest friends and my baby talking about my exhaustion and lack of focus...tears started streaming down my face and I was feeling as pale as I looked...

I got loved for my emotional outburst!!! This outburst not only surprised my friend but also my man and mostly me. After that & some other heavy stuff I decided I need to truly focus on myself.. Routines or rituals... getting back on a sane sleeping rhythm, eat healthy and raw food, create, take vitamins and be kinder and more forgiving to me.

I guess it is so easy to forget to take care of yourself... Anyways

Insomnia Lyrics By Faithless

Deep in the bosom of the gentle night
Is when I search for the light
Pick up my pen and start to write
I struggle, fight dark forces
In the clear moon light
Without fear... insomnia
I can't get no sleep

I used to worry, thought I was goin' mad in a hurry
Gettin' stress, makin' excess mess in darkness
No electricity, something's all over me, greasy
Insomnia please release me and let me dream of
Makin' mad love to my girl on the heath
Tearin' off tights with my teeth
But there's no release, no peace
I toss and turn without cease
Like a curse, open my eyes and rise like yeast
At least a couple of weeks
Since I last slept, kept takin' sleepers
But now I keep myself pepped
Deeper still, that night I write by candle light
I find insight, fundamental movement, uh
So when it's back this insomniac take an original tack
Keep the beast in my nature under ceaseless attack
I gets no sleep
I can't get no sleep

I can't get no sleep
I can't get no sleep
I need to sleep, although I get no sleep
I need to sleep, although I get no sleep

Ecstasy...

Hungry kisses on lips...flashes...body heat & electricity...
breasts & thighs
melting...helplessly dripping love wishes softly on skin
eyes, flesh & sweet summer breath love
take me divinely
to ecstasy

New Projects...

I have been spending a huge chunk of my time everyday getting my project ideas to bloom so I can set out and accomplish them.

I have lots of collaborations going on and I def have got some wonderful opportunities unfolding

I just need to commit now, prioritize and give birth to my babies.

SEXY

Energy Vampires

In this lifetime I decided not to take them on...
I left them behind & I push them away.

Fucking Judgementalize and suck yourself dry
Take your negative chi somewhere else
. . .

Ebs SHIFTs 2 Flows

I have been dreaming a million quick and vivid dreams.
Been lying awake in a blissful blur of words and images... Damask, tooled leather, embossed things & relief works... with the most lovely skin next to mine... feet and legs all entwined, breathing, loving, thinking & smelling of you.

I have been feeling the creative mood shift... I have photos to take, art and much more love dripping and raw to make.

Scenes from the M Train

Haunting and Beautiful!!!

Happy New Year!!!

Today

Today, this morning... I lay in bed thinking on the past.

You adored me and I felt safe with you!

The winding drive all stones ha, the steps also stones that lead to the flagstone porch... God we spent a million moments on it every summer...crying, laughing and story telling!

We sometimes never spoke... you knew my pain ... Understood... we just could be... those were my safest days and quietest moments in the early years of that nightmare part of my life.


I remember your gardens the rockery... flowers swaying in the hot summer breeze, watching the humming birds compete for nectar from the feeder you filled lovingly each morning.

While my infant slept and cooed in the shade beside us and the whipperwills sang!

Thinking about you today! I wonder Nana how many cups of Tea and how many kisses you planted on my forehead cheeks ... Hummm to many to count for sure!

I am grateful for the lessons and love!

I am grateful you played with the kids and fed them mashed potato you made and eggs with butter toast fingers, that you ALWAYS snuck a tiny bit of cadburys english chocolate in their little rosebud mouths...

The lovely presents and walks and black and white movies till 4am the love the love the love!

My Nana!Thanks Giving makes me think of you!

The way you always smelled so good and always had your arm around me!

How I wish you could meet my Aaron ... I am happy finally so happy!

That you could see I love my little loves so dear and they oh how they have grown.


I miss you love you too!Continue to RIP!

I love hot humid summer days! The house smells so good the soapy smell from the shower is amazing!
Smells like holidays ...

Wake my love, so I can go with you bask and give you salt water kisses
and oil baths...

Last night thunder clapped while I listened to your heartbeat.
I breathed in the sweet summer breath you breathe and the lightning revealed caressed skin...

In the trunk of a car!!!
- tragically hip

Fucking Fuck! And I am grateful that you are not!

While you held me ... I trembled...my soul beared to you, I swear I felt as if I left my fingerprints on cloud 9...

A mother can and will cry a million salty tears to try and ease a childs pain...

The ache of your childs anguish burns like hells fire...

First of many mobile blogs ha! This is a test!

L A ... dreaming and memories...

You may think right away Hollywood Glitz and Glamour....sure it's there, we played a bit too...I am a girly girl love to dress up and feel sexy as much as the next woman.

However for me it was about soul!

The Ocean... rugged and rough sea pounding rocky sandy shores.... dreaming about painting on the beach... writing there ...making love in the sand mmmm
taking photos...diving...swimming, floating away in his arms while the water laps at the back of my neck caressing thoughts and encouraging primal creativity....ROAR

The crevices and little discoveries, and god... staring at the one I love while his soul is free completely free....

The mountains and breathtaking views... the endless possibilities...Freedom to explore and be explored!!! Driving hour after hour into the wee hours... feeling looked after, appreciated safe and cared for on every level...

We drove all over saw so much talked forever, laughed, played,loved even spilt happy tears and reflected ... made plans and it is a place I will always have some of the very best memories and experiences on a love,soulful, pure, gut opening and heady way...

I am so in Love so blessed,so healed...

I love coming home too... to our home smelling that smell of home being in our space with our cherished belongings and reveling in the best part of all I am with the most amazing part of my life

my
love my love my love...

Today...

Today was a beautiful "Springlike" Day I think 60 degrees at some point and it's been happening off and on with bitterly cold days in between ... I'll take it.

I had errands to run but stayed and I walked around for 5 hours today happily window shopping clothing and home wares , kitchen gadgets, art antiques , jewelery etc...

Managing a little price break on Canal after negotiating with the vendor.

Met up with my love for coffee and his smile and arms felt so divine when he greeted me.

I wished I had the camera with me but I will be more diligent about that in the future

I rode the subway home in a very quiet sleepy thoughtful trance

TODAY

so alive... so much to tell

Riding the waves... depth, soul and some funk...

Body surfing the waves darlings has been a lesson and you know mother nature wins...

I am a passionate charismatic person whom loves life and is so blessed...

I have been diving deep into the waters of life and my soul ....

but got into a funk...

The kind of winter funk that gets to most of us the kind of funk that you tell your
self is not fair and you wish it would just go away... But I have also been under the weather... :( for sometime...

Thank you to all my beautiful friends and especially to my Love for standing by me while I am sick and tired and healthy and strong ...

Now its time to get on with it ...

I'm back with a vengeance

FUCK IT!!!

Vote For Change!!!!!

I can't Vote here yet!!!! One Day though!!!!

DO IT!!!!!!!

Please...

My New York

My New York is...
subways,getting on the rails the wrong direction,the archives of your mind opening up and breathing ,
relenting,passion,exposure,over exposure,under exposure,riding waves,wanting to see waves,the park,iced coffee,gourmet food that costs to much,poverty,wealth,reaching,reveling,music,beauty,purity,breathing,sharing,exploring,staying air conditioning , moisture,smells,p b and j, ,rising up ,unity,oneness,garbage, photos ,friends,stoops,smoking to many delicious cigarettes, a billion overheard conversations on the subway or in the streets ,sirens, taxis, takeout, staying in , parties, working, loving, being lost in crowds,missing people,being content, communication, pearls, clothes, high heels and blisters, walking,sultry heat,loving you & being loved back ,first times finances,being alive ,being me,rewards,future,art,photography,living life watching others have joy,sorrow,pain,...imperfections that are perfect ,,architecture,getting involved,learning,being still,healing,making way for so much more,pushing on when you are sleepy,smiling,discovering you can cry,realizations,expectations,making love in the blue light of the morning ,Chinese laundry,talking till its 11 am,profoundness,privacy being utterly cherished,spaces, dusty baseboards everywhere ,filthy club washrooms and the surprise i feel when they are clean.

to be continued...

be nice

just be nice you don't know the kind of day someone has had .........
maybe they want to smile but just can't ,maybe they are hungry or sick maybe
just maybe they have a broken heart or they just need a smile to make them feel welcomed....

be nice

who are they really?

People who say and do things to be self serving out right denying the facts before them or others or to manipulate and use someone for thrills , money,control or adventure either by way of making them feel special and unique while doing the same with others or maliciously tricking them in to feeling safe when they have no intention of providing that..... has somewhat tainted my trusting nature ....LUCKILY.... I have someone who has been making me feel special unique, loved and safe for the last year and I believe him,

In Review

This question who are you?


Posed in a much more seductive and eloquent way but this was my response last fall the only thing I would add to it is that I find lies and dis-honesty ,betrayal to be unforgivable.... going through an awful divorce finding out these things , knowing them actually and having been betrayed over and over again repulses me.....

Moving forward ....thankfully I don't have this problem any longer...



Tuesday, September 11, 2007


response

i am a contradiction.......
lover,fighter and peacemaker .I am a friend an artist a loving & fun mother.My memories are priceless and will keep company when I grow old.
I am a dreamer, thinker,a sensual being that longs for nature and nurture,touch smell and taste .I love the way the garden reveals miracles each season and I get to play. I can argue .I am passionate about love and life and I wake up wanting more everyday.... I want and I need sunshine and rain, I worry, I am honest and silly. I am hungry and thirsty for knowledge & experience(s). I can be lonely in a room full of people. I am unique and special, I am important and insignificant too.I love deeply,fully and almost unconditionally :),my soul is awake my spirit sings when I create. I walk with each of you I am human........ I am incapable of hate but capable of intense dislike,don't lie to me, cheat on me or steal from me just ask...
I will help you up and if you hurt me I might push you away.I can be a bitch,I like to talk, I love silence, music makes me happy and feeds me when nothing else will,I dance for fun and always will.I am spiritual,I love home..... .I love warm flicker of fire and enjoy living lights( candles )each day ,I cry in the shower, i bathe away anger,i love clean,clutter aggravates me, i love the warmth of breath and the way the wind teases the leaves on each tree,i am here and I will be gone one day.I am impatient and and patient too. I have a sense of humor.I want to be liked, I want to remain humble and giving i don't want to be abandoned,shamed or forgotten,my spelling is horrible .I need to express myself,reflect and share....... I am learning about me everyday and this is some of who I am so far.........
fleurs
wow trying to flow with the thoughts as they come and try to say it all with out putting it into order

baby always...

How to say I Love You in 100 Languages

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumem
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bengali - Ami tomake bhalobashi (pronounced: Amee toe-ma-kee bhalo-bashee)
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Catalan - T'estimo
Cherokee - Tsi ge yu i
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Chinese
Cantonese - Ngo oiy ney a
Mandarin - Wo ai ni
Comanche - U kamakutu nu
(pronounced oo----ka-ma-koo-too-----nu) -- Thx Tony
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Cree - Kisakihitin
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Elvish - Amin mela lle (from The Lord of The Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien)
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg

Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hald fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe
Hebrew
To female - "ani ohev otach" (said by male) "ohevet Otach" (said by female)
To male - "ani ohev otcha" (said by male) "Ohevet ot'cha" (said by female)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru or Anata ga daisuki desu
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo or Nanun tangshinul sarang hamnida
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Luxembourgeois - Ech hun dech gaer
Macedonian - Te Sakam
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Maltese - Inhobbok
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Ndebele - Niyakutanda
Norwegian
Bokmaal - Jeg elsker deg
Nyonrsk - Eg elskar deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing 'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Surinam - Mi lobi joe
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai
To female - Phom rak khun
To male - Chan rak khun
Informal - Rak te
Tunisian - Ha eh bak
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese
To female - Anh ye^u em
To male - Em ye^u anh
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe
Zazi - Ezhele hezdege
Zuni - Tom ho' ichema

La Belle Muse

A new blog with Aaron A Brooks
Creativity, Exploration & Expression

www.labellemuse.blogspot.com

randomness

Is that really a word? I think it should be if it's not..........

self portraits

I don't really know how I got started with the self portraits one day I just started shooting me! Back at it again ,I have several that came out great!Here are a couple from the other day!
Not perfect just the way I like them.

you never know ......

Ok ,I'll admit horrible shot of my work...
I still wonder sometimes where my paintings come from ... I mean I know but ... I don't...

this one is called heart @550...it is shocking to stand back a few days later and see what I was feeling on a canvass.....

Inspired by many things.... New York!!! Special moments and people
I am heading back in a few days for almost three weeks can't wait!!!!

The top photo is the frame I used to make this canvass...

NEW YORK...& Co...

In love hopelessly in love

at least it keeps me outta trouble......

Friday Night In Toronto.......

Tonight is a night for Painting...

I hope my smokes last the night I don't feel like going anywhere...

well except home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bathe in light

The skylight above the bath tub Sublime in the am...

light and shadows mixed with love

Both of these shots deserve a place of their own I'll fix it later...

it's been that kinda week!

what dosen't kill you only makes you smoke more???

Another Holiday...

Came home to find everything rearranged!!!
Punishment I suppose ... what should I expect!

I expect nothing but negativity, games and grief !!!
shame on you !!!

silence.....stings............

like a hard slap in the face.........
no talking ,no sounds , no love .........

Home/Alone !!!!!

Today I really wish I wasn't !!!!!

On a brighter note my brand new bed arrives tomorrow!!!
At least that will be sweet!!!!

New Shoes.....

Paolo Nutini - New Shoes Lyrics

Woke up cold one tuesday,
I'm looking tired and feeling quite sick,
I felt like there was something missing in my day to day life,
So I quickly opened the wardrobe,
Pulled out some jeans and a T-Shirt that seemed clean,
Topped it off with a pair of old shoes,
That were ripped around the seams,
And I thought these shoes just don't suit me.

CHORUS:
Hey, I put some new shoes on,
And suddenly everything is right,
I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody's smiling,
It so inviting,
Oh, short on money,
But long on time,
Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine,
And I'm running late,
And I dont need an excuse,
'cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.

Woke up late one thursday,
And I'm seeing stars as I'm rubbing my eyes,
And I felt like there were two days missing,
As I focused all the time,
And I made my way to the kitchen,
But I had to stop from the shock of what I found,
A room full of all my friends dancing round and round,
And I thought hello new shoes,
Byebye them blues.

CHORUS

Take me wondering through these streets,
Where bright lights and angels meet,
Stone to stone they take me on,
I'm walking to the break of dawn. (x2)

CHORUS (x2)

Take me wondering through these streets