9.27.2010

Genuine...

free from pretense, affectation, or hypocrisy; sincere: a genuine person.


Ha, where have all the good guys gone?


I think that money, success, and social power leave very few people un phased and scarred...
( sad + true)... Even those in their wake end up scarred and jaded.



I am loyal and caring I give to much & wish I didn't give a shit... but I do!!!
turning the other cheek!

9.14.2010

Day Two...





Day two has come and is going...

I am reflective, satisfied, convinced & hopelessly consumed.

I will never be an afterthought again.




9.13.2010

Day One

The day has arrived ...
I am officially on a six week run of sobriety and retraining my body and mind to crave only what it needs.

MEDITATION restoration Cultivation

7.13.2010

Deconstruction + Reconstruction = ME :)




I think my style is that I don't have a specific style...??? Don't know really!
I have been wanting to make and recreate clothes into one of a kind items for forever !!!
There is something really satisfying about destroying and rebuilding things!!!!
I started today...spurred on by wordrobe bordom and the need to be creative.

6.08.2010

my old life sounded like this!!! SO sad...

Mad World
I just heard this song and I love it but damn did i feel this way for that long?




Gary Jules (cover of Tears for Fears)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.


More lyrics: http://www.lyricsty.com/lyrics/g/gary_jules/#share

5.08.2010

Jewelled...





cerebral mortar and pestle grinding.....

earthy desire......intoxicating .

Sweetness of breath

bodies jewelled with sweat.

Lip gloss stains ........ kissing salty glowing skin

hand fulls of deep warm sublimeness

searing ripe flesh.......

5.03.2010

Insomnia...Mania...


My Insomnia has been driving me crazy not sleeping more than a couple hours in every 24 hour period for over a month reached a fever pitch a week ago Thursday...In a cab with one of my dearest friends and my baby talking about my exhaustion and lack of focus...tears started streaming down my face and I was feeling as pale as I looked...

I got loved for my emotional outburst!!! This outburst not only surprised my friend but also my man and mostly me. After that & some other heavy stuff I decided I need to truly focus on myself.. Routines or rituals... getting back on a sane sleeping rhythm, eat healthy and raw food, create, take vitamins and be kinder and more forgiving to me.

I guess it is so easy to forget to take care of yourself... Anyways

Insomnia Lyrics By Faithless

Deep in the bosom of the gentle night
Is when I search for the light
Pick up my pen and start to write
I struggle, fight dark forces
In the clear moon light
Without fear... insomnia
I can't get no sleep

I used to worry, thought I was goin' mad in a hurry
Gettin' stress, makin' excess mess in darkness
No electricity, something's all over me, greasy
Insomnia please release me and let me dream of
Makin' mad love to my girl on the heath
Tearin' off tights with my teeth
But there's no release, no peace
I toss and turn without cease
Like a curse, open my eyes and rise like yeast
At least a couple of weeks
Since I last slept, kept takin' sleepers
But now I keep myself pepped
Deeper still, that night I write by candle light
I find insight, fundamental movement, uh
So when it's back this insomniac take an original tack
Keep the beast in my nature under ceaseless attack
I gets no sleep
I can't get no sleep

I can't get no sleep
I can't get no sleep
I need to sleep, although I get no sleep
I need to sleep, although I get no sleep

4.24.2010

Ecstasy...

Hungry kisses on lips...flashes...body heat & electricity...
breasts & thighs
melting...helplessly dripping love wishes softly on skin
eyes, flesh & sweet summer breath love
take me divinely
to ecstasy

4.21.2010

New Projects...

I have been spending a huge chunk of my time everyday getting my project ideas to bloom so I can set out and accomplish them.

I have lots of collaborations going on and I def have got some wonderful opportunities unfolding

I just need to commit now, prioritize and give birth to my babies.




4.16.2010

SEXY

4.15.2010

Energy Vampires

In this lifetime I decided not to take them on...
I left them behind & I push them away.


Fucking Judgementalize and suck yourself dry
Take your negative chi somewhere else
. . .

Ebs SHIFTs 2 Flows

I have been dreaming a million quick and vivid dreams.
Been lying awake in a blissful blur of words and images...
Damask, tooled leather, embossed things & relief works... with the most lovely skin next to mine... feet and legs all entwined, breathing, loving, thinking & smelling of you.
I have been feeling the creative mood shift... I have photos to take, art and much more love dripping and raw to make.

2.11.2010

Scenes from the M Train




Haunting and Beautiful!!!

1.01.2010